Through The Closet Door by Rick R. Reed

Through The Closet Door by Rick R. Reed


Gregory has all the pieces in place: youth, good looks, a beautiful wife, a job he loves as an elementary school teacher, a quiet house on the beach…

So why is Gregory so miserable? Why is he unable to control his lingering gaze on his neighbor, Jake, the handsome truck driver who lives just down the way from him? Why does Gregory spend his private time keeping a secret journal that details fantasies and memories of him locked in embraces with other men?

It’s summer, and the peaceful lake belies the turmoil in Gregory’s heart. His wife wants to start a family, while Gregory wants to start something with Jake, but doesn’t dare.

Rick R. Reed’s heartbreaking new story brings to painful life the consequences of coming out of the closet when you’re married and no one in the world but you knows the secrets you harbor. Gregory’s mask is slipping, pulled down by the allure of a handsome neighbor and the demands of a desire that gets only louder the more he tries to quiet it.

Climbing out of the closet is never easy…but it’s even more difficult when doing so might shatter the lives of those around you… 



*Reviewed for Manic Readers Reviews


Gregory is a man with everything. He has a beautiful wife of a few years that he loves, a teaching job that fulfills him, a great cottage on the beach.. what more could he ask for? Despite all the wonderful things in his life, something is missing, off, wrong. He’s fighting with his wife because he’s not ready for children and struggles to deal with disquieting and disturbing feelings he’s kept hidden for years.

During the course of one summer, Gregory must come to terms with the long hidden fact that he’s gay. He uses his journal as an outlet to hide and relive the anonymous gay encounter he had in college as well as the dreams and longings he’s tried to ignore for years. He loves his wife, but he struggles with the desire to simply be alone without the pressure to fit himself into a life increasingly becoming a lie for him.

Gregory is a touching character, lovingly drawn as he stumbles in his journey to find the truth of his life. He is conflicted between wanting the reality of his desires, manifested in a good looking neighbor, and not wanting to hurt his wife, whom he really does love. It’s not easy to hide his desires but it’s even more difficult to find the truth of his wants when it means his entire life changes and hurts those whom he never meant to hurt. This confusion and angst leaves Gregory pulled in several directions and his emotions ricocheting.

While I rarely add quotes into reviews, Gregory’s confusion and pain are embodied in this scene so well. He wanders to Jake for comfort, but not certain what comfort he really wants.

Gregory wants nothing more. This feels so right and so wrong…all at the same time. He shouldn’t be doing this. Reluctantly, he moves forward, so that Jake’s hands will drop from his back. The absence of Jake’s touch makes him long for more, like some deep-seated hunger that is simple minded in its pursuit of satisfaction.

Despite its short length, the pacing and writing of this story was very well done. Reed has an ability to elicit complex emotions with poignant characters. The ending was clearly meant to be left hanging as the character was, on the cusp of a painful but necessary journey. “Through the Closet Door” demonstrates the true strength and conflict that are involved as a gay man comes to terms with his sexuality, his desires and needs, making that scary and painful step out of the closet. 

Get it HERE!

My Review at Manic Readers Reviews HERE!



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